Showing posts with label tightness. Show all posts
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Thursday, July 5, 2012

Days 3 - 7 (06/29 - 07/02/12) and PICTURE Updates (3 day and 1 wk Photos)


You will see Day 3 pics and 1 week pics at the end of this page...

And you NEED to look forward to that 1 week mark.... It's a HUGE milestone!

I read and was told that the first 3 days are the worse and then things start to slowly get better.

This is THE TRUTH!

If you are reading this and you are in your first 3 days, hang in there!!

And remember, your doctor DOES NOT HEAL YOU!  He helps your body the best he can prepare to heal itself.  You HAVE to listen to your doctor, listen to your body and help yourself 
 to heal up.  That plus TIME is what heals you.

I slept on the couch for the first two nights, but that proved to be uncomfortable.  I could see swelling in the small of my back and neither ice nor heat immediately helped the swelling and over all aches I was having in my body.

I ended up moving to our bed.  That felt great!  I slept better and with a lot more comfort.  My fiance and I have a Tempurpedic bed and it proved to be perfect.  I still slept on my back, propped up and at a 45 degree angle but my body and muscles were at least happier.

Taking Care of My Self (With My Fiance's Help) and Following The Doctor's Orders:

I was NEVER in true pain from minute 1 until now.  EVER.  And the reason why I believe this is because I followed my doctor's orders and took care of myself!  I also know that pain tolerance is a player in this too, but you do not have to be Super Woman.  Just be Healthy Woman and Smart Woman!

Take the pain meds as directed to PREVENT the pain.  Don't wait until its already there.  I only needed Vicodin for 7 days.  That's it.

YES.... In my MIND, it killed me not to be active and moving around.  But I listened to my BODY and TRUSTED that my doctor knows best.

Quick Look at Days 1-3 of Personal Care:

- I took it easy and relaxed a lot!  Calming the body and giving it plenty of fluids and rest helps it to heal!  Plus, you will want to nap often... the pain meds and anesthesia still leaving your body can cause this to happen too.
- Ice my breasts for 20 min on, 40 minutes off from when I woke up, until when I went to sleep
- Drank a ton of water, caffeine free diet green tea, small sips on Ginger Ale if I felt a little nauseous or needed a little sugar
- Took my pain meds and muscle relaxers on time and as directed with water and a few crackers
- Resumed my multivitamin and vitamin c tabs
- Kept my diet limited to healthy items (plain grilled chicken, dark green veggies, water, the occasional sugar free Popsicle or frozen fruit bars
- No caffeine, no excess sugar or sweets, no smoking, no drinking alcohol, and no strenuous activities
- No shower (until the pain pump was removed... My fiance helped with sponge bathing me)
- No laying flat down or on anything besides my back
- No lifting or doing much more than the bare minimum
- Walking around the house for 5-10 minutes every 1.5 hours (or whenever I had to get up to pee) to get the blood flowing and muscles moving

Water Is Your Best Friend:

Drink a lot of water!  It will help flush out your system and help to avoid bloating!  Avoid caffeine and sugar too.

Loss of Appetite But a Fear of Weight Gain:

I kept reading about all these women who claim the gained actual weight and looked "pregnant" (due to bloating).  This does not happen to everyone!  I fully believe if you are a healthy woman to start and you are careful and still treat your body well during healing, you will have NO problems.
Pain killers also kill your appetite (the pain killers plus not eating normally also lead to the constipation), which makes matters hard because you need good nutrients to help you heal.  You have to eat healthy things.  It is hard, but you can ration out your intake easily by taking small bites of good foods throughout the day.  It might take you an entire afternoon to eat the equivalent of a meal, but you need to keep yourself healthy.

In addition, weigh yourself the morning of surgery.  And then DO NOT do it again until you hit the 2 week mark!

Your body just underwent major surgery.  You will have fluid build up in your breasts and in your body (plus the added weight of your breasts which out vary from a pound to more, depending on saline/silicone and size), you may retain some water (and this sounds odd, but drinking more water will help to flush that out), and, as gross as this sounds, you will be constipated and after a few good BM's, it will at VERY least help you to feel lighter.

Bloating:

Again, I kept reading all these horror stories of women claiming the bloated up and looked 2-4 months pregnant.  I do not know how healthy they were to start with and how they treated their bodies during the first few critical days of healing but I did not experience anything even remotely that bad.

Yes, I did notice marked swelling around the small of my back for 2 days (that went away with the help of ice, moving from the couch to my own bed, and short walks around the house several times a day).

I also noticed a little bloating in my lower abdomen, but it was very very minor.  And I do think some of it had to do with the fact that I wasn't standing and carrying myself like I usually do because of the soreness, pressure, and tightness of my chest and upper body.  You know what I mean... when you slouch or totally relax your muscles, your body shape in your core can look more puffy than when you are standing or sitting upright and holding those muscles tighter.

This look and feeling lasted maybe Weds, Thurs, and a little into Friday.  But, with the little walks, drinking plenty of fluids, removing the pain pump, starting to be able to hold myself upright (you won't believe how hard it is to contract muscles around your chest, armpits, and core at first) I started to look and feel more normal.

And, as gross as this may sound, after taking a few good healthy BM's, any worry or look of bloating dissipated by Sunday (5 days after surgery).

So don't freak that you will terrifying.  Just BE HEALTHY and listen to your body.  If you are not a healthy person now, I would suggest getting healthier prior to your surgery.  It will only HELP you!

Constipation:

It took me until Saturday to actually produce a BM (bowel movement).  My last BM was the night before surgery... So I went 5 days!  I started to take Peri-Colace on my 3rd night (Thursday) and took it as directed for two days.  Even with that, it still took 2 days for it to work and help me out! I finally had a few healthy BM's by Saturday. By Sunday, I felt "cleared out", lighter and happier.

Incisions: (3 Day and 1 Week Pics below... be prepared!)

My incisions are under my armpits (transaxillary) stitched with dissolving stitches, and covered by surgical tape.  At my post op appointment, the nurse told me that I need to leave the tape on for at least 3 days and after I take out the pain pump and shower, I can let them come off in the shower.  

She did add that the tape MAY come off on its own sooner and that is ok.

Well, the tape sweated off all on its own by Thursday.  And I was not expecting the incisions to look like they did.

Now, I was warned that the incisions could look puffy and rather gross for awhile while the skin and nerves heal up.  But I was rather taken back on how gross my one incision looked.  (And it doesn't help that you can't shave your armpits for awhile... probably about 2 weeks due to the soreness and the incision! So gross!)

Prepare yourself....  These are kinda gross.

And yes, the images have been blurred some... I blurred out the armpit hair...  It make the pic even more gross, I hate body hair, and it is just icing on the cake of gross.  LOL.

LEFT Armpit Incision 3 day Mark 06/29/12

RIGHT Armpit Incision 3 day Mark 06/29/12

Yes, there is some bruising, but it is mild. And that is the ONLY bruising I have, even now, 1 week later.

1 Week Armpit Incisions

Yes...  still can't shave... and yes, it blurred that out.  Ew.

 LEFT Armpit Incision 1 Week Mark 07/02/12

LEFT Armpit Incision 1 Week Mark 07/02/12

As you can see, minus the blurred out armpit stubble, the incision scars are looking better.

Removing the Pain Pump: http://youtu.be/SCkMCICEZpY

The above Youtube link is NOT me, however it will give you an idea of what its like and what to expect.  Beware...  it could make your a little queasy.
My doctor told me that when the pain pump runs out in about 3 days and I can go ahead and remove it myself.

          The directions were as follows:

- When the pain pump is empty (all the juice is gone and there is just a hard small cylinder in the middle of the clear plastic bag with the On Q written on it) it is time for removal.
- Carefully pull of the surgical tape holding the tubes in place.
- Place your fingers as close to the tube entry near your skin and slowly start to pull the tube out
- Repeat on the other side

He said not to worry, there will be no pain but I might feel the tubes moving and sliding out from inside my breasts.

He also warned that there could be a drop or two of blood by the entry site and have a tissue or gauge ready.

Well, it was removal time and I was grossed out and queasy at the whole idea.  My fiance helped out though and made it easier for me.

Removing the tape was the only painful part.  That stuff is on there like glue!!

Once the tape was off, he started to pull the tube.  It felt like he was pulling forever and I 100% felt that tube sliding around in my breast.  It was rather freaky!  It DID NOT hurt, but was just such a crazy gross feeling.

After he got the second tube he showed me how much was actually inside me.... The better part of 8 inches of tube in each breast!  Crazy!

I did feel a lot better after the pain pump was removed but I really think it was all psychosomatic...

 The idea in my mind that the removal of the pump was a sign of getting better, not needing it and moving on with healing.  That, and it felt so good to not have to wear the fanny pack, carry the pump around, having all those tubes taped to me and risking getting caught near the fanny pack, etc.

Either way, by Friday afternoon, I noticed a HUGE improvement on how I felt!

But, I am GLAD I got the pain pump.  I HIGHLY suggest it!  I do not know how I would've felt without it, but considering I was never in real pain, I am guessing it had something to do with making that happen.



Wow... This is real and this sucks! It was something I read about and I was prepared for just in case.  

And I am glad I did.

Here is how I felt following and when it hit me...

The moment the bandages came off I was rather apathetic to the look.... I was neither excited nor upset because I knew going into it that it was not going to look like the final product and that I have at least 3 months before they get more normal.  So I was ready for the "great unveiling".

But after I got home and things settled down and I realized how weak and sore I really was, I started thinking.

When I could barely pull my own shorts up, couldn't open the fridge door, couldn't shower, stuck inside resting, couldn't shave or wear deodorant... My breasts were so swollen, hard, and tight.  I felt like I got hit in the chest by a baseball bat, my body felt swollen and my body ached, and I started to really wonder if I did the right thing....

That's when I looked down at myself and thought, "What did I do??  I "disfigured' and maimed myself!"

I felt like I'll never be able to go for a run, lift weights, do push ups, or even hug anyone normally!

When I looked down I just saw these two huge massive breasts that jutted out so far, looked uneven and hard and on top of it, I felt like EVERYONE who looked at me would see these and know they were fake.  I even said at one point that I wish I had never had the surgery.

I felt unattractive, disfigured, grotesque, weak.... and I felt ashamed to show my body to my fiance.

He was wonderful through it though. He did his best to make me feel good and told me how good everything is looking.  He reminded me that what I am feeling is normal  and it will get better.

It took until about Monday (6 days after the operation) to start to feel better about how I look and feel.

But once I started to feel better, the tightness and soreness started to go away and when I started to feel more like myself, things started to perk up.

I now am over the post-op blues and I know that over the next few weeks and months, things WILL continue to get better.

Hang in there... you WILL feel better!!


Exercise:

My doctor said after 3 days, I can start to resume light exercise, like take 30 minute walks a few times a day to start.  And I was walking by Saturday.  That really helped to make me feel better. I have been walking 30-60 minutes every day since.

The first few walks I did feel tight and it was uncomfortable.  But each day, that gets better too!
I also have resumed doing normal things at home, with caution.  I have been able to do laundry, cook, clean, etc.

It also makes you feel better to get back into a normal routine.


Sleep:

Sleeping has been... interesting....

Now that I am feeling better, during the night, my body keeps trying to turn over onto my side to sleep.  I still have my pillows on either side of me that keep me from flipping totally over and also help to support my breasts if I do turn.  It has seemed to help too.

The following are 3 day pictures and 1 week pictures for comparison.  It's getting better!
 
Next update will be the 2 week mark on 07/09/2012

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Post Op Appointment 06/27/2012 @ 10am



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Written at 4pm on 06/27/2012, 25 hours after my surgery
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First of all, after a pretty decent first night, I was very sore when I got up this morning. My whole body was tense, tender, and achy from head to toe.

Part of the tenderness was from trying to stay propped up all night. Some was from trying to hold still and not jostle myself around. And of course, some of it was from the overall trauma on the body caused by surgery and my body trying to start healing.

My fiancé helped me again this morning get cleaned up (I cannot shower yet) and dressed (I still cannot move about freely without mass discomfort).

I was a little grouchy to him though and I feel bad about this fact. I think it's a combo of not sleeping soundly, the pain meds, and being so uncomfortable.

I can say this as a 100% truth... Words cannot describe how glad I am that I have a pain pump and stayed close to my doctor's office.

I still will not call what I feel constantly as "pain". It is still just a tightness and overall soreness with a little pinching under the arm put near my incisions.

But, again, I have a pain pump and I am taking my pain meds, antibiotics, and muscle relaxers around the clock as prescribed by my doctor. I also follow each pill time with a few whole wheat saltines and have not felt nauseous. I am not really hungry though.

I am also continually drinking fluids (Gatorade, water, Crystal Light, ginger ale) and today I resumed my Once a Day Vitamins plus Immunity Support Gummies (my body seems to tolerate these better than other OTC vitamins) and 2x a day Ester-C 1000mg Vitamin C pills.

I cannot say if the two vitamins are helping more at this point yet but my doctor did suggest taking them prior to and after surgery. And he has been right so far.

After he got my cleaned up and dressed, we checked out of the hotel and got in the car. The walk actually felt decent after I got stretched out some.

The car ride was a different story. I felt every bump, dip, acceleration, brake, sway, curve, slight elevation change, etc. And my fiancé was so careful driving. He couldn't have been any more cautious.

We got to the doctor's office and I was immediately brought into an examination room. The nurse asked me a few questions and after I gave her the good news on my "pain" level and how I was feeling she told me I was about to feel better.

She had me remove my hoodie and she started to remove the bandages. It was instant pressure relief; like the pressure was reduced by 80%. It wasn't painful, but the weight of the breasts unbound was a weird feeling.

After it was all removed I got my first glimpse of them in the mirror. They did not look as bad as what I was expecting.

From reading other people's stories and the "warnings" from people's experiences and doctor's info, I was expecting the worse. But it wasn't too bad.

They were swollen and looked bigger than what I wanted, but I was expecting that already. The implants were not sitting too high though and they already have a good shape. My nipples were not pointing down or tweaked in any way. The nurse was pleased and so was my fiancé.

She gave me the breast band in case the implants start to ride too high with instructions to call the office before I put in on. She said that I don't need it now but just in case, the doctor wanted me to take it.

The nurse also said that the doctor approved me walking for short, 30 min walks starting today if I feel like it and if I feel like it will help.

The doctor had an emergency that he needed to address so I was unable to see him today. I wasn't thrilled with that but what can ya do? I have faith in his staff and I can always call if I need something.

The nurse said to pull the pain pump out Friday and once it's out, I can shower. She said to be gentle because of the sutures under my armpits and the tape covering them. I guess they'll take up to month to dissolve. But on a positive note, I can wear deodorant starting on Monday or Tuesday.

I asked the nurse how long the incision is but she said she didn't know. And it's too sore to lift my arms to look. That and the tape is covering them.

I made my next appointment with the doctor for July 9th (12 days from now).

Man, I am worried about pulling the pain pump tubes out on Friday....

Surgery Day 06/26/12 @ 1:30pm and Post Op (Bandaged) Photo

 
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Well, I wrote this post a little over 7 hours post surgery. It went well. :)
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I woke up about 9:30, showered, washed my hair and scrubbed all over really well with Hibiclens.

At 10:30am, I took Emend (a pill to help with nausea.... When I had my wisdom teeth pulled YEARS ago, it made me violently ill, so the doctor and anesthesiologist planned ahead for me to try to help me not get sick).

By 11:30, I was showered and ready to go. I was also hungry and thirsty. :( I hadn't eaten since 12a and no water since 4a.

The ride there was quiet.... My fiancé held my hand and told me that everything will be just fine. Just his presence made me feel better.

We got to the surgery center, signed in, I signed final paperwork, and was temporarily separated from my fiancé.

The nurse brought to my recovery room and he was asked to wait for a few minutes while they started my process. I put on a gown and silly surgery grippy socks and got comfortable.

The nurse asked me a few final questions, answered my questions and took my vitals. Another nurse who would assist in surgery came in to say hi and see how I was doing. She was sweet, very warm and friendly like the first nurse.

The anesthesiologist came in and helped to calm me. He gave me a pain-free IV and said when I get in the surgery room, he will let me know when the "sleep time" will start.

I had to give a urine sample to the nurse and when I returned, my fiancé and the doctor were waiting for me.

We talked to the doctor. He answered final questions, put me at ease, and marked my chest for surgery. He said I'll be in surgery for 45 minutes to an hour and we will be starting soon.

He left to prepare and within minutes it was time to go. My fiancé kissed me and I was wheeled off on my recovery bed.

In the surgery room I started to get really nervous. But the staff was AMAZING!!

The nurse had me slide from my recovery bed to the surgery bed and got me comfortable. She laid a warm blanket on me and massaging leg wraps on my calves. I had to stretch my arms out and they were covered up with warm towels.

The anesthesiologist told me that it's time to start and to relax. He said I'll close my eyes and when I open them, I'll be in recovery. He did warn me that there would be a chance that I might wake up a little when I am sat up to be bandaged (but I did not).

He said to tell him when I feel something... And about that time I sure felt something. I was able to say "I think I am starting to feel..." and that's all I remember.

About an hour or so later, I started to come around in the recovery room. I was greeted by an incredible recovery nurse. He was the best of them all.

I don't recall too much right away other than having to move from the recovery bed. And I know I felt a little nauseous

The anesthesiologist came in and he and the nurse gave me more meds. The anesthesiologist told me he also gave me a lot of anti-nausea in my IV too.

I was in and out of it for what felt like a long time. My fiancé was the best though! He helped me take sips of water and ginger ale and have me cracker bites.

When I had to focus and do something, I could. But I fell asleep in between those times.

I didn't feel true pain (and now it's 9:46 and I still haven't). My arms sore (the nurse told me its from the way they have to manipulate them during the surgery( and armpits are a little "pinchy" (again my incisions are there and all the gauze and bandages are kinda rubbing me funny).

Otherwise the feeling is a terrible pressure on your chest, the weight and tightness is manageable but is very present. I won't call it pain really.... It's more of an uncomfortable, constant pressure and tightness.

Plus it's taken up till now to be able to take a deep breathe without a great deal of pressure and increased tightness. The nurse gave me a breathing toy where I have to make the ball float in the tube when I breathe in to help me use deep lung breathing.



(Later I realize how much it helps.)

My doctor came in to check on me, have me take a hydrocodone (Vicodin) for pain (even though I wasn't in that bad of pain). He said everything went very well and that they look great. He seems genuinely excited to show me them tomorrow.

He said I still have to pee before they will let me leave and to try to go soon.

The nurse came in and helped me walk to the rest room... And it was a no go.

So I drank a cup of water, a can of ginger ale, and three little cans of cranberry juice (on top of two IV bags I already had running through me..... Guess who was probably dehydrated when she went into surgery...).

The nurse also showed me a few tricks like pouring warm water over the genitals, bare feet on the cold floor, running water, and finally walking laps.

Then he dropped the catheter bomb if I couldn't pee on my own....

I tried one last time and I really strained. I finally peed!!

But the activity and straining made me nauseous!

I returned to the room my fiancé helped me to dress and the nurse gave me Zofran for the nausea. And it took a little bit, but it eventually helped.

The nurse wheeled me out to my car and assisted me in. He was so sweet and comforting. And he commended my fiancé for his excellent care of me. He said that he is hired! :)

Since we don't live close to the doctor's office, we opted to stay at a hotel close by. And I am SO thankful for that!!

The short few mile drive was slightly painful. I really couldn't support myself all that well since I have the armpit incision and the gauze is padded up pretty thick under there.

We finally got to the Hilton and I was wheeled up to the hotel room. I didn't feel nauseous anymore and was just sore.

And I got my first glimpse of my chest. WOW! They already look good and I'm so excited to see them tomorrow. My fiancé seems excited too. :) And he also seems more calm.

My fiancé got my all set up on a bed and comfortable. and we ordered something to eat. I enjoyed a nice fresh caprese salad and I did not feel ill at all. I took my antibiotic and painkiller and had some Gatorade.

I am now resting comfortably, and am going to watch some TV and relax. I'll be taking more painkillers and a muscle relaxer soon. The pain pump seems to be helping too. Not that I have anything to compare it too, but if you're on the fence about it, I would say it's worth it. I wouldn't want to know what it feels like without it.

I will say this though, I am experiencing a little bleeding from the tubes from the pain pump. It's not terrible and doesn't hurt. But it does look a little freaky.  http://www.iflo.com/prod_onq_classic.php





My post-op appointment is at 10am on 06/27/2012. I'm excited for that and yes... I'll be updating that appointment and finishing older posts too.